Seeking You

Walking in a crowded street,

Languishing in my own emptiness…

Seeking the place, where I can meet

The ever elusive solace and peace in your caress…

Getting wet in the rains…

Standing under our favourite tree

When my tears mix with the heaven’s…

Then at last I feel free.

Loneliness gives me courage

The dreams we dreamt together direct me…

I want to get rid of the image

That I failed to hold on to you when you were here with me…

Time flows on, it never takes rest

I am tired after all this running, in spite of the inevitable end…

Still I give it my best

’Coz I know you are waiting at the bend…

Do not give up hope, wait for me

I will meet you, in the dawn of rejuvenated music

Do not reject me, wait for me

’Coz I will come seeking your forgiveness and love…

Timeless Glow

Why do you hide your face, O Moon?

Out of anger or shame?

Or are you tired of all the glory and fame?

Does the limelight warm you or burn you?

Do you still seek public attention or shun it?

O Moon, you have been admired always…

You have been seen as the epitome of beauty

You have inspired millions…

Are you tired of it all…

Do you want your private emotions to remain private?

Your life has been snatched away from you…

Moon, do you think it’s a fair bargain?

You ‘lost’ your life in pursuit of elusive glory

Is it fair……?

Is fame desirable?

Don’t you ever feel like sharing the emptiness…

Why are you so opaque, O Moon?

Why don’t you let someone see the real You…

Dark and Cold

Are you comfortable in reflected glory?

No matter how wonderful, please know

Your heart has become numb in the voids of time

Open up and you will find…

The peak is lonely…

Descend a little…

In that insignificant defeat lies greater victory

You must be tired…

Its time you go back to the shoulder

Of the One who is waiting for you.

La Preguntar (The Question)

The futile anger,

The incessant pain…

The anxious wait

The tears that flow in vain…

They all surround me,

Drowning me in the quagmire of despair

They all suffocate me

Pushing me down the abyss of grief

The faltering hand…

Slowly disappearing in the quicksand of time

Will someone grasp it…

Will someone pull me out?

I do not want to live as a floatsam

I do not want to breathe with deep sighs

I do not want to lose you…

I do not want to shake your belief…

Will you love me…like you used to?

Will you calm my anger with your smile?

Will you bring an end to my wait?

Will you kiss away my tears…my love?

Atheist

Hey God, you listening?

People think I am proud,

I think you are too fantastic to believe

But, I want to know what you think…

I do not believe in you O Almighty…

I laugh at your so-called ‘powers’

I have lost faith in your ‘justice’

And even though its ‘blasphemous’

I dare question your ways.

I have a God, my God…

The One who brings heaven down to earth for me

She loves me but…even though she tells me

I do not believe in your omnipresence.

I may have believed in you

Had you not been portrayed in my image

I do not trust my image…

It signifies all that I have lost faith in,

Maybe, O Saviour it may trouble you to know…

I do not idolize you.

I do not try to make others believe me…

I do not let others tell me what to believe

I am not humbled by your magnificence

Because I do not believe…

I know people think I am naïve

But, I think I am an atheist.

Are you angry with me?

You think it bothers me…

Or do you think I am scared?

I just want to be far from the madding crowd

And above all I want to be…

Far from the ‘hypocrisy’ of your divine self.

Time

As time passes by me…

Laughing at my foolishness

As the endless wait…

Continues to be my sole companion

I look back

I look back…

To what had been…the beauty that

We were a part of

Time which has mocked me so many times

Seemed to have been smiling at me …then

I don’t know what to call this emptiness

I don’t know how to forsake the friendship of Loneliness.

I know what is Freedom…

But I don’t understand it…

I have been told that ‘this’ is Love

But I don’t realize it.

I have run very hard

I am panting…can I stop?

I miss being with you

Can I come back?

O Time! Why do you make a fool out of me?

These wishful thoughts

The hollow dreams

And the hopeless sighs…

Pathetic…you say

I say…maybe

I loved you…but it never reached you…

My messages were blown away by the wind.

The footprints I left for you to follow…

Are covered with sands of time

And as I wait…

Time mocks me.