Monday, December 24, 2012

For Nirbhaya & Those Who Languish in Darkness

Her cries were drowned in laughter…
Her pain was buried in lust…
As, animals tore her apart
We watched.

We have been silent…
We will always be…scared…hiding…
And, she will continue to be brutalized
As, we watch

She fights…they laugh…
We sermonize…
We react…safe in the anonymity of the numbers
We actually enjoy…

Animals, we are…
Watching them tear her apart…
Slowly…painfully
And, still we choose to watch

Let’s stand up…once…together
And, make them afraid.
For once…for what is right…unafraid & free

And, then maybe my sister will find peace.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

The Awakening of the Pen


As, the night sky rumbles…
And, winter draws near
I huddle in the cold…
Filled with a new fervor

Sometimes, the cobwebs need dusting…
Sometimes, a weary soul needs a smile
Or, maybe just a coffee, a cigarette
A short acknowledgement that you are mine…

But, it’s ok…all is well…
As, it rains
Cold…dreary…December rain
And, all pain is frozen

While, my pen awakens
Perhaps, in desperate search…
Search for an answer
Or…A desperate attempt to cling on to its identity

Monday, October 1, 2012

Of Flying Kites and Freedom


Of all things silent…
Of friends and forgotten stairways...
Of flying kites and being free
And, standing still

The lonely piece of sky…from the lonely window
Sighs, as she clings to the railing
The last of the tears…
Have dried in her throat

She searches…
For a kite…for a colourful spark…
In the grey heavens…
Something else from what is…

Her shackles have fallen silent…
Her battered soul numb
Seeking not freedom…but assurance…
That not everything is a lonely body in the lonely streets

Yet, the sky is empty…
The music silent…the guitar unstrung…
She turns back to darkness
The grey sky stays quiet.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Of Rains and Afternoons


The naughty rain…
And, lazy afternoon silently watch…
As, you breathe gently on my neck…

And, we ride on dawn’s chariot…
Unbridled…free…
While, the world stops around us…

And, we move as one
Afraid…Happy…
As, waves of emotions wash over us

And, rain falls…
While we soak in it…drink it up
As, if there is no tomorrow

And, we hold each other…
Afraid to let go…
The old, lazy afternoon…just smiles

Friday, August 10, 2012

Dusk


Changing with time… slowly morphing…
As, my flesh gets ripped off on barbed wires
I move forward…bleeding and bones…
While troubled waters keep flowing under the bridge

The pen refuses to move…
As, too many words block its path
The blinding pain…giving way to cold numbness
While, I close my eyes…and let sleep embrace me

But, in my waking dreams and lonely sojourns
I have searched for solace in your arms…
As, the sands and winds have left their marks…
I stand unrecognizable…battered, but strong

I have picked up my pen again…
To dance, with my rain
And, feel coffee’s bitter kiss
With the forgotten half-burnt cigarette on my lips

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Rain Messenger's Diary 18....25th April, 2012


I have almost forgotten when I last picked up my pen to write something, or in this case typed something in Word.  But, a long hiatus from penning my ramblings is not what perplexes me, what astonishes me is I didn’t really get the insatiable urge to write. The search of a livelihood and the whole deal of growing up perhaps steals a bit of you from you.

Suman has sung some of my favourite lines, one such being “E Sahar janey amar prothom shob kichu, palate chai joto shey ashe amar pichu pichu”. It has always intrigued me how we keep trying to run away and avoid our past yet the more we try to forget, the harder it gets to do so. I do not know whether am running away or just don’t have the time to stroll down memory lane…but I do miss my madness when it rains. I miss, being able to simply walk out and greet the rain with open arms and closed eyes.

In a daze, I walk on doing things that are expected of me, a non-descript life of a non-descript human-being….one among teeming millions whose absence or presence is equivalent.
I truly have lost the touch…I seem to have lost my words…I guess sometimes we do lose our lives in search of our livelihoods

Friday, February 17, 2012

Winter’s Embrace

The winter crept up stealthily behind…
Like an old friend…
And, embraced my weary soul
Embalming my wounds in its chilly blanket

I have wondered about this winter…
In my waking dreams
I have wrestled with shadows
Wondering about my being…

I have questioned relevance of life…
I have run for miles…just to feel tired…
And, I have waited for this winter…
Enigmatic…cold…inevitable…

Torn apart with questions
I have sought solace in unlikely corners…
I have traversed lonely boulevards of my mind…
In circles

Elusive peace and elusive answers
And, an elaborate sham of civilization
I have been a part yet apart…
But, now finally I surrender…savoring the winter’s embrace

Age

The curtains part…
Making way for dawn’s silent footsteps
Sentinel of a new day…
Testimony of another day’s end

And, life walks on…
Chained by contradictions…and misunderstood fears
Just some wrinkles, mute witnesses…
Of passing time

She looks up at her slice of sky
From her verandah…in her lonely apartment
And, watches the vast unknown
With a half drunk coffee by her side

She watches the fog roll by…
Hiding her familiar view…
By her loved window…she closes her eyes…
And smiles…It doesn’t matter even if its time…